angry freedom and grounded freedom

In recent days, through the body and through movement, I became aware of two very different ways of living freedom: angry freedom and grounded freedom.

Angry freedom is born from revolt. It appears when something becomes unbearable and the body reacts: to flee, to break away, to leave. It is a freedom against something. There is intensity, urgency, energy. Often, there is relief. But there is also tension, loss of control, and chaos. Chaos generates exhaustion. When the escape is complete, the body rests for a moment — and then, not rarely, emptiness remains. It is a freedom that liberates quickly, but does not sustain.

Grounded freedom is different. It is not born from anger, but from presence. It arises when the body feels support, when there is awareness and curiosity. Instead of fleeing, I explore. Instead of closing my eyes, I open them. There is choice, responsibility, and rootedness. Grounded freedom liberates slowly, but it sustains. And it builds — in contact, with time, with the possibility of continuing to choose.

In Gestalt language, angry freedom tries to force a figure to close. Grounded freedom allows the unfinished to exist, to be felt and explored, until it finds its own way of completing itself — or not.

Today, I recognise: I am not looking for angry freedom. I am looking for grounded freedom.

A freedom that does not tear me away from myself, but holds me as I walk.