don't think, don't think 

Yesterday in dance class, we were rivers. Each with its own course, always in relation to the other.

First, the loose movement — only mine.
Then, the same movement again, but this time without thinking.

And the teacher shouting: Don't think! Don't think! Don't think!

It was liberating. To have someone say: Don't judge yourself. Don't doubt. Get it wrong as you move.
To fail is to be alive.
To make mistakes is to create, to destroy, and to create again.
Mistakes generate energy.

I realized how much strength the body wastes in self-control, self-punishment, self-judgment.

And when that weight is released, the energy suddenly bursts out — it implodes and explodes:
the strength of the wild animal, belonging more to the forest than to a large, white dancing space in the middle of the city.

In Gestalt, we call this the "duties" — the introjections that interrupt or modify the contact. Introjection is a process whereby an opinion or an attitude is unquestionably taken in from the environment as if it were true, as a foreign body taken in and kept (Joyce and Sills, 2001). 

How should I move?
And how do I move when I let go of "should" and step fully into the present?

All this can be felt so easily through movement.
Yesterday, in just twenty minutes of dance, the body created a space:
for desire, for curiosity, for listening, and for relationship to emerge.